I think it goes without saying that I've had to make some huge changes to my lifestyle. It's an old cliche but you only get one life (in this form anyway!) and if I want it to be a long, healthy and happy one I've simply had to make some adjustments.
As I mentioned in an earlier post, I am doing well with my get back to work plan, I have to say that my employers have been wonderful. As well as Lois being my absolute rock, the company have bent over backwards to help and make me feel comfortable, that has been another key factor in the recovery and I am very grateful for that.
I've had to put the balloon business on hold, yes I love it, yes I am getting my creativeness back but do I want to be working that many hours and filling up my weekends with jobs that don't generate much profit? would I rather be spending time in the park my my doggy and my Husband? A big part of this particular decision has been around my feelings of failure but after analysing it with John I really haven't failed, infact in the time I was doing it it was a success, I have just made the decision to not continue with it at the level it was in favour of a more relaxed way of life, I don't think anyone can hold that against me?! Yes I do owe my in-laws some money but I'm confident I'll pay them back - hopefully sooner rather than later!
I've taken a long hard look at my friends, I've learnt who my good friends are and although it sounds ruthless, they are the ones who will get my excess energy going forward (only when I have energy to spare!). I have distanced myself from other people's emotional problems, it's meant I've had to be a bit more honest than I ever would have been before but I don't think it's a bad thing, I have a bit of a spring in my step and feel so much better about everything. I worry if I've become selfish, but I don't think I have, I'm just a bit more picky and again that is not a bad thing.
The last time I had a hectic weekend was last July and my mantra going forward is 'balance, balance, balance'.. I honestly don't think I'll ever go back down that road again, not now I've tasted how nice quiet weekends in the garden are!
The only other big change in my life has been the drinking, I really did use to enjoy some wine or a few beers but for some reason since I've been poorly I've really gone off it, I suppose the thought of hangover whilst already feeling ill every single day is just unbearable! I've had the odd glass here and there but not a drop since January, not a conscious decision, just how it is. I've also cut out caffeinated drinks and now only have decaf tea, coffee and diet coke, I read that caffeine acts like a mild amphetamine in the body and I figured that was the last thing I needed right now!
So that's the most of it. I'll be adding updates along the way so please keep checking back and please feel free to comment or share your experiences too.
Many thanks for your support and here's to a healthier, happier rest of the year.
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