What goes up, must come down (and go back up again!)

I'd been waiting for this little blip to pass before writing my next post, but I've been feeling off colour for a week now so I thought that it might be useful for anyone reading this who is going through the same thing to see that the road to recovery is a bumpy one, no matter how upbeat and positive you are and that is OK!

Last Tuesday I actually felt great in the morning, I went to work, came home and had been looking forward to week 3 of meditation. Over the course of the afternoon I took a downturn and started to feel poorly. I had 48 hours of what I can only describe as flu without the flu(!), I felt sick and achy, I had a sore throat and felt really run down. I had to cancel therapy on Thursday which wasn't ideal, but there was no way could I muster up any energy to leave the house. Every time I go out, even if it's to the newsagent it is a big effort and psychologically I need to be in the right frame of mind.

I had a better day on Friday but completely over did it by doing 9 hours at work (not technically my fault for once!) and although the weekend was a lovely one doing some bits of shopping and visiting our Mums on Mothers Day, it was sociable and tiring. Lois summed it up perfectly at work today, she said it's like imagining myself as a sponge soaking up water and after those few busier days I needed to have all the water squeezed out!
I woke up yesterday with a terrible migraine and suffered with nausea and low mood all day. Today wasn't too much better although I did manage to get myself up and out to the office which was a good thing. I find the office a very stimulating environment with the noise and lights and constant interaction.

Something that I have been trying at the office when I need it is plugging my iPod in. If you are struggling too then I can highly recommend it. It is against our general office policy so you may also need to seek special permission. I have only used it a couple of times when I've really felt the need but it has helped me stay at work far longer than I would have felt able to under normal circumstances.

So, I apologise that this post isn't quite as full of the joys of spring that I would have hoped but I can assure anyone with something similar that I know myself that these bumps in the road are getting fewer and are also less frequent and when I look back I can still see the massive progress that I am making and you will too.